Journey from appraised value to declared worth: Overcoming abandonment in relation to childhood sexual abuse

My Journey from Appraised Value to Declared Worth

According to the Mayo Clinic Libraries, the value placed on the basic elements in the human body is $4.50. When I was younger, a relative “appraised my value” as much less! I remember him "jokingly" telling me, “If your daddy had a quarter, you wouldn’t have been born!” Apparently, my dad could have bought a … Continue reading My Journey from Appraised Value to Declared Worth

What I learned from snakes in my bed: Overcoming fear related to childhood sexual abuse

What I Learned from Snakes in My Bed

When I was a child, I had a recurring dream of snakes in my bed! Often, I begged my parents to let me sleep in their bed, or I slept with the covers pulled tightly over my head. As an adult, when I finally understood why my childhood bed wasn’t a safe place, I realized … Continue reading What I Learned from Snakes in My Bed

My god had No Arms: Overcoming a distorted image of God resulting from sexual abuse

My “god” had No Arms!

As a prayer counselor prayed with me after my mother’s death, I remember how shocked I was to hear myself exclaim, “My god had no arms!” It came in response to a childhood memory of my mom accidentally scalding me as she washed my hair. Such words would normally never come from my lips, but … Continue reading My “god” had No Arms!

Leaving the Illusion Behind: Responding to Repressed Memories of Sexual Abuse

Leaving the Illusion Behind

When I was a child, the Andy Griffith Show depicted life in a quaint little Southern town called Mayberry where relationships were genuine and everybody got along dandy in the end. A lot of TV shows were like that back then. In fact, until my late forties, I believed my life was like that too. … Continue reading Leaving the Illusion Behind

Valentine's Day and a Pastor's Uninvited Advances: Recovery from Clergy Abuse

Valentine’s Day and a Pastor’s Unwelcome Advances

Conversation hearts were once my favorite Valentine candy. That abruptly changed one February evening as I walked alone to my car after church. He was waiting for me in the parking lot, his hand outstretched with candy hearts to pour into mine. He smiled and asked for a kiss. A kiss? As the elderly pastor … Continue reading Valentine’s Day and a Pastor’s Unwelcome Advances